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I am a single mom, my son is going to be 3 at the beginning of September, and am yet adjusting to this new “condition” that is, being a mother… Believe I’m getting there, slowly and surely though!
Well, this is me and my general beliefs, really, the outline, there is more though, some experience, some ideas, some philosophy, some poetry, some tales, and few other things…
WAYS
INJUSTICE… What does INJUSTICE mean? The… Un-just thing one does… Un-just where Just means Right, so what is the Un-Right? WRONG.
RIGHT & WRONG
Now, what do these words mean?
RIGHT= the proper way, as opposed to…
WRONG= the improper way…
So, what we are basically talking about is WAYS, the roads one can take, being either proper to a cause or improper to that same cause.
Of course there are opinions and opinions, on what proper or improper is, but lets just concentrate on the matter for both Right and Wrong, that is: “WAYS”.
Let us picture in our minds a “way”… a road… multiply this road, make them hundreds, as to symbolize the infinity of ways existing and the plethora of choices one has.
[Take a moment to recreate the image in your head]
Now, care to make this image a bit more accurate to our primary quest: a Right or a Wrong is defined by what YOU believe to be Right or Wrong. The roads you picture, therefore, they all depart from the same starting point, you.
[Take a moment to picture this]
These roads you are picturing in your head can easily be compared to the rays of a geometrical figure, a circle… now let them enter a three-dimensional environment, let them become the rays of a sphere, give them natural life, transform them instantly into the shiny rays of a Sun, beginning from a fireball and ending into the abyss. Don’t follow any of these rays, to see where they take you, see the whole picture first, see this Sun emanating rays/ roads/ ways, that depart from under your nose, the Sun is under your nose.
[Stop for a minute and observe]
These rays go in different directions, and they form a crown around you, they surround the fireball and by doing so they blind you from seeing its real shape. You can see the light it surrounds itself with; see the rays, but not the actual fire that produces them.
Do you know an ancient proverb that speaks: “By looking at the tree you miss the forest?”
Well! The opposite is also true: “By looking at the forest you miss each one of its trees!”
Can’t figure out why that came to mind just yet, but I have a feeling I will find out soon…
Let your mind take in this Sun of ways, this sphere, without doing much digging, simply look at it (in your mind, doing it for real will only ruin your corneas) and now turn the image upside down.
See that this Sun is very distant, not under your nose anymore, rather miles away, see yourself not being that sun, neither next to it, see yourself being the receiver of its warmth instead, the receiver of the light. In other words, put yourself at the end of the road, at the ending line of one of the Sun’s rays…
Are you in the position to state, whether this ray that unifies you (the ending line) to the Sun, is an entirely proper or improper way?
Whether the ray to your left is proper?
Whether the one on the right is improper?
Whether any of these rays are Right or Wrong? My personal opinion is: No, not entirely!
And this is way:
You are a Sun too, you emanate rays just like the “real” Sun does, you will receive the light of one ray, one way, one road… from the Sun: probably this translates in the allowance of a “Lifetime”, but you will transform the light you receive into a smaller Sun emanating at 360 degrees in 3D of rays too!
Some rays you’ll produce will be proper or improper, for you, to your causes, not necessarily in the same way as for everybody else, at impact with your choices. These rays/ways/roads will however be characterized as proper or improper from other people, people who have made entirely different choices. People who, likewise, have also been “enlighten” by the Sun and have transformed the light they received in their own personal Suns exactly as it happened with you… Are you seeing where this whole picture leads us?
It is a network of Suns, ours, a connected and well functioning mechanism for Giving and Receiving light, in terms of rays, from the Sun to you and back, from the Sun to everybody else and back, and from everybody to you and vice versa.
It’s all a process of Giving and Receiving in general!
Point being that it’s really crowded in here, and for this reason it’s very easy to step on each others ways, to bump and collide, so, for as long as you minimize the “limitation” you might cause to others, for them to Give and Receive as well as you, you are actually working finely into this network… balanced and in tune with… the “Forest of Suns”!! (That’s why I thought of the forest and the trees, aha!)
I’ll become repetitive now but I don’t mean to intrude into the workings of your minds, merely just state the presence of this method I find quite clarifying – at times – using it for the purpose of exploring the “Network of Suns” a vision representing “Humanity” here.
The method is to concentrate on Matter, because that is the One in common for each contradiction you are faced with during your life, whilst the various “Directions” for your contradictions could pretty much be infinite! And yes, – (negative/wrong) and + (positive/right) charges exist, but you cannot group them universally, they are relative to your subjective prospective on all levels of being (Mind, Body and Soul), therefore three-dimensionally speaking the difficulty is three times bigger than infinite in formulating a Universal theory, if you base it on the directions of thought!
You will eventually come out with a style, a belief, that will end up grouping you in a “church” that is for plenty or for a few, but bear in mind it will only hold a part of the Universal truth, one aspect of it, not the whole, it won’t hold everything in it, exactly because it is based on the study of a direction and not the centre of, the nucleus, the matter they all hold!
P.S. I will write another essay regarding “limitation” and the reasons why I believe they should be minimized, and that’s because not many choose to read through my texts if they are too long!
Heart’ Flower
“HOT STOVE’ BURNING DISBELIEF & DESIRES”
IS IT WRONG OF ME TO WANT YOUR MEAT?
FOR IT TO BE FRESH WHEN WE MEET?
AND STAY ALIVE AFTER IT BECOMES FOOD TO EAT?
NO! NO!
NO OTHER IS GOOD FOR ME,
I HAVEN’T CHOSEN IT.
YOU SEE?
SO
DON’T DRIVE ME CRAZY
JUST COME WITH ME
MAKE THE WAIT WORTH WHILE
DON’T LET ME BURN AND FRY…
STEAM, I PREFER
STEAMING IS A HEALTHIER STYLE.
MELT IN MY MOUTH
FOR AN HOUR
LEAVE!
GO WHEREVER YOU DESIRE!
LISTEN!
WOULDN’T KILL OR BITE
COULDN’T HURT A FLY
I WOULD JUST…
KEEP YOU CLOSE
FOR A WHILE.
AND IF THAT’S TOO MUCH TO ASK
AND “OVEN” IS WHAT YOU REQUIRE
DON’T APOLOGIZE FOR IT
EXCUSE IS SOUR!
TILL YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND
I’LL BE DREAMING OF YOU
WANDERING AROUND MY HOME
RELAXED AND
NAKED TO THE BONE
FLIRTING WITH BASIL LEAFS
AND CLOVE.
Heart’ Flower
The Skin of Soul
Once a Darling Rock-man
Told me he couldn’t figure out:
If I was a Leaf…
Or the Breeze shaking it?
I still sometimes think of this.
Another saw a Magician…
And one saw a Witch
But
A Messenger
I’d like to think myself to be.
Child of the World
Unleash your imagination and fly,
Move along with the wind,
Dance and Sing to this rhythm.
Whisper your Message,
Draw it on breath that mists glass
On the windows of a car,
And on the mirrors in the bath.
Inspiration for those
Who will write
Upon me
Words on my skin.
If I needed nothing more than words to live by,
I would already be in Paradise.
Heart’ Flower
… Line Acrobatics
Welcome,
The “Paper Circus for thoughts”
is in town tonight!
Here Acrobats
Caught in ribbons of ink
Travel their Lines.
And improvise,
At all times.
A jump, a turn,
Truth and Lies.
Years pass by… and
The “Cyber Circus for thoughts”,
arrives.
The Acrobats,
Clicking on keyboard and mouse
Travel their scripts’ outlines
Typing,
Whatever comes to mind…
These fine Gymnasts
Always find ways
To keep their shows
Alive!
Where opposites meet…
A Journey within, through the use of Analogy
I’d like to suggest an experiment today; I’ll walk you through it, and speak the experiment on myself, but who of you wants to, can simply follow the outline of this reading, answer the questions I refer to, disregarding my answers. Using this as a compass for a mind journey of his very own! 
Bear in mind this is a journey within!
Spoke of Need and Want before, how the two hold parts of each other, how, for instance, “Want to care” holds a “Need to care” just like the opposite is also true. But:
What is Want?
What is Need?
Use Analogy, using it helps you relax and forget about the lack of confidence in matters of language, there are millions of ways to describe and define a word… for instance, I’d go for this:
“Need is what water is to plants and Want is what fertilizer is to them”.
The “Plant” here is the Matter whereas Water and Fertilizer are the directions this matter follows (see “You can do Magic” or “Want and Need” for a more detailed explanation on my use of the words “Matter” and “Direction”). And although for the vegetable kingdom we could leave it to that, our target is to understand more, learn, maybe even come to terms with our Needs and Wants (or is that too much to ask of ourselves? ) so, let’s bring it back to the “human” environment:
What does the plant stand for, in the human context? Human life: You!
What could Water be analogically compared to in the human world? Could it be… Oxygen?
And Fertilizer? Food, maybe?
Automatically, we have that: “Need is our Oxygen, Want is our Food”
Where “Our” stands for US, Humans, the Human form. Concentrate on Human form (the matter) and ask:
“What is my Human form?”
Let’s define that, what is it made of? What are its constituents?
You may think this is all too structured and mathematical for your liking, but I can ensure you it will go bizarre in about 5 seconds from now…
The constituents of my Human form? My body, one sure thing, all and every one of its organs and parts…
my brain, my heart, my bowel, hands and lips and nose and legs… In a previous reading I spoke of taking directions away, as by means of focusing on and understanding Matter, now comes the time to bring those back to play: overlap them!
Put the 2 directions together (Oxygen and Food in the analogy with Need and Want), it’s not always easy, but in this case it is. Overlapping opposite directions makes them neutralize each other, a bit like Mr. Smith and Nio at the end of the movie “Matrix” did. Neutralized directions, in turn, stop hurting one the other, rather learn to coexist, learn about togetherness.
Now, let your thoughts go slowly and surely into the images of the anatomy you know of yourself, pick an organ or part of your body as you browse through them, I just chose randomly my Tongue.
Give it some Oxygen, let it breathe… healthy and serene your tongue relaxes, see it has a life of its own, and that she is waking up just now, stretching after a long sleep and taking a big breath to get back into shape… your tongue now is ready for breakfast, give it Food, allow her to grow, to be fertilized… the food my tongue requests right now is something fresh and sweet at the same time, like a Jasmine flower’ scent, turn the scent into a taste, close your eyes to enhance it, let your palate recall the flavor of Jasmine… and as you held into picturing the shape of a breathing tongue, hold a little longer adding to this picture the flavor of Jasmine, cook an awakening potion in the sensorial kitchen of your mouth, for your tongue to taste!
Do this with a few more organs or parts of the body that you come to think of first. When you’ll feel satisfied with the images you created, it will be time to move further on…
What else is my human form made of? My mind, all and every one of my dreams and thoughts…
again, make the analogy for your dreams and thoughts, put them into the context of your physical body, they also are organs in your body, they respectively are the organs and parts of your Intellectual body.
Watch a series of dreams rushing fast before your eyes, pick one that pleases you to think of, I would suggest for you not to indulge in the “feeding” of one too many dreams at once, these organ’s immensity could lead you out of focus, just one for now… allow it to breathe in Oxygen.
What is Oxygen for dreams? In an instant I come to think it’s Hope, the word I’m looking for, so give your dream Hope… and let the images of this dream overwhelm you for a minute, next, pass on to Food… feed your dream with hmmm… Action! Let these images move, create a movie, fantasize…
A dream of mine is to build shelters for kids and their families that could work as infirmaries and nurseries, school and playground. So, I give my dream some Hope, the Hope that one day I will be able to make this dream come true, without having to get involved with organizations!
In my dream, now filled with hope, I reach the building site, see the contractors drawing and discussing about the plumbing in the building, the first shelter is getting built, there are kids already playing in the backyard… and Action: I am with those kids in the backyard, we are hanging white sheets to dry, a boy comes with a bucket full of orange paint, looks at me with cheeky eyes whilst dipping his hand in the bucket. Of course my clothes and face turn all orange; we chase each other with colors in our hands splashing paint everywhere and soon after everyone else join us in the game, naturally the sheets too…
Bear in mind we are moving to thoughts soon, take the 1st scene that comes to mind at this time, watch the trailer of your dream movie, not the whole movie right now, but reassure yourself you’ll be back later, to catch up on this viewing!
And now thoughts… if dreams are the Organs here; could thoughts analogically be the Parts, in our intellectual body? Just like hands, feet, neck, are the parts of our physical body?
Define Parts: the regions our organs inhabit. Could then dreams be the inhabitants of thoughts? And in turn, could thoughts be the vessels our dreams fill? Let this one be the maiden concept for the Oxygen to find its gateway. Oxygen-Hope transforms now into Air that flows through all the pores of your skin, matching your physical body to your intellectual body.
Focus onto a thought, what is Oxygen for thoughts? At this very minute I think its kindness, stroke your thoughts gently… allowing them to breathe at a stable rate, concentrate on the first thoughts that come to mind, even if they speak of: “time passing, tons of work to do – no time to finish, no more time to sit and meditate” even if its worries… allow yourself to concentrate on the word they have in common: TIME. Dare to define even Time for yourself, what do you think of Time? Is it just a ticking clock for you or is it something more? …Give your thoughts Food… What is Food for thought? More thought maybe!!
Play the part of the scientist or the philosopher and dive into the definition of Time. Use analogy, let your mind lead you and don’t question the validity of its suggestions, if it brings “loafs of bread” to the surface of thought, for instance, try to understand the connection it’s trying to make, don’t rule it out immediately, except if you are hungry, in which case you know your mind is very politely taking the piss out of you!
Moving on to the 3rd dimension of the Human form… of Being: the Soul, made of feelings and emotions.
Your “Emotive body”… can we say that? Where all your feelings are the organs to explore, to give oxygen and food to, and the parts? What is the name of the regions your feelings inhabit? The Expressions of themselves… Emotions! Your smiles, your tears, your words… your colors, your dancing moves… the heat you might feel or the shivering cold, at impact. These are the cribs your feelings sleep in.
Give them their oxygen; give them the food they ask of you to prepare for them, and finally… when you’ll feel full and complete in your soul as well, put the puzzle together: physical, intellectual and emotive body as one.
Overlap them, going back to all the imagery created within this session: match for example the scent of Jasmine to the boy with the orange paint, giving taste to the orange color. I might even come out with an idea for a recipe with Jasmine flowers and Orange or Tangerine juice… maybe just what my body needs right now, and that is why I came to think of this and not something else… or the link means to say that the shelters of mine need to provide food for the kids as well!
You get to discover yourself, your very special, utterly unique way of expressing and understanding yourself: the essence of your thoughts!
What you just witnessed, is the embrace of needs and wants, seeing they can be united, because they are safe, freed of the ties of social environment, ties that make too many distinctions and always less connections.
Now… Remember it all depends on the matters at hand and your willingness to work with and on them.
You have the chance to transform into an independent thinker, your existence comes unbound and free allowing you to improvise… and
Enjoy the feeling!
P.S. Just a tip: DO THIS WITHOUT THE USE OF DICTIONARIES, do it with your own head.
Heart’ Flower
Daydream
TODAY THE HEAT HERE ROSE TO 41 DEGREES CELSIUS, AND I WOULD RATHER BE SOMEWHERE ON A BEACH WITH PAGE AND INK, TO WRITE UNDER THE SHADE OF A TREE… THAN AT WORK. NEEDLESS TO RUN ALERT, FOR ANY REASON AT ALL.
YOU KNOW THAT DREAMS ARE BEAUTIFUL EVEN WHEN THEY DON’T COME TRUE? YEAH, THEY EXPRESS YOUR WISHES, THE KINDEST ONES ON THE PALETTE!
WELL, THAT WORKS FOR ME, BUT NOW DAYDREAMING MUST STOP, SHOULD BE GETTING BACK TO MY JOB.
“DREAM? COULD YOU HOLD ON AS YOU ARE TILL I GET RIGHT BACK ON YOUR LAP? WILL YOU WAIT FOR ME TO BE BACK? WELL, TILL THEN, HAVE A NICE ONE!”
“HELLO REALITY! YES, AS USUAL I’M LATE! SORRY ABOUT THAT! COME EASY ON ME, ALLRIGHT?”
You can do magic!
When I got involved into the study of “contraries”, was stroke by this question: ”What is the matter of both Masochism and Sadism?”
Well, I was observing people and their tendencies, amongst other met people who predominantly loved to receive pain, and people who loved to inflict it. Most of them didn’t even realize they were literally feeding on it, they lived the abuse of themselves and others and didn’t want to get out of it, allowing themselves all sorts of excuses so to carry on a certain style of living. That is why I came to think they loved, deep inside, their conditions.
Masochist, the ones who love receiving pain, for it gives them pleasure, and Sadists, the ones who love inflicting it, for it also gives them pleasure.
I am not analyzing here what kind of pain they feel nor what kind of pleasure they get, rather just the matter: PAIN.
In my study I saw that if you take out, omit the action, therefor “receiving” in one case and “inflicting” in the other, you are left with one word: PAIN… So, realized that masochism and sadism are opposites in direction (give-receive) but similar in matter (pain).
Lets carry on though, felt I could dig deeper and asked: “What is the opposite of Pain?” Answered: “It could be Joy”
Now let’s define these two in a very simple way:
Pain – emotion that Hurts
Joy – emotion that Soothes
… Again, take the action away, “Hurting” and “Soothing” and you have the matter: EMOTION.
Let’s rest on this for a minute, let’s observe and channel this thought, going deeper into it: Could everything, all the definitions, all the words we use, the feelings they produce, be working just like the particles of an Atom do? Charged with a direction?
Could the directions be compared to the + (positive) charge of Protons and the - (negative) of Electrons?
Could we see beyond the charge and into the matter?
Could we channel energy, letting it flow freely, not minding the charge but simply cruising the matter, exploring it, as if we were the Neutrons within the Atom?
And ultimately, if we do take the directions away, and we focus on the matters instead, can we accomplish anything valuable for our everyday living?
Could we free our souls of prefabricated and predefined conceptual complexes, of social standards, and rather make a step ahead into understanding ourselves, our feelings, our cravings? The ones of others?
The roots behind them all?
Ok, of course I don’t know the answers to these questions, but what I know is that understanding the simple process by which opposites only oppose each other in direction – not matter, helps me connect with the World and deal with many of my problems.
Don’t think I risk a state of “numbness” towards what I experience and see of the World, because actually I get more angered and disappointed now, than what I used to before, for it has all become so vivid to me, that – in a sense – it’s like I’m witnessing my very own open body – head to toe – surgery, with no anesthetic, but, when feeling anger, despair, disappointment… at least I now know of being experiencing some directions of the same matter and have the chance to change these directions, for myself, with simple and plain “wishful thinking” in its real and not metaphoric sense, that is by wishing to do that!
This isn’t a complex and difficult thing to accomplish, actually it’s an easy and playful thing to do: firstly you lay ahead the controversy (e.g. Pain v Joy) , define the opposites, take out direction and concentrate on the matter, in this case: Emotion.
So, what is Emotion, if not our ability to feel?
I am personally bound to automatically connect it to something positive, because it’s an extraordinary ability we are exploring for centuries and still haven’t managed to even minimally understand and structure.
The abyss it constitutes, for me, no matter how many times I’ve been sad in my life, makes it really difficult to think negatively about it, so… concentrate on your ability to Feel.
You are a human being, You feel and You don’t want to go on feeling Angry, or Disappointed, for instance… Lets take this last one:
Disappointment as opposed to (must give it its opposite) Satisfaction, what are they?
Disappointment: the realization something doesn’t go the way you wish and want, as opposed to
Satisfaction: the realization something goes the way you wish and want… gosh! It’s all about REALIZATION, what is realization?
Realization is a discovery, Discovery??? Uhauu, all over sudden I feel I’m an Indiana Jones discovering treasures in my planet, within myself!
As an Indiana Jones how could I rest into disappointment? Haven’t I got the map to my treasure? Haven’t I reached it yet…
Than again, the matter is being the Indiana Jones I just found out I am, the treasure comes next!
Omit the direction and you are left with the matter, now, in my opinion (and not only), matter and energy are the same thing, take therefore Energy, free it of charge, undress it of charge, and give it a new life!
Give it the amount of charge you want to give it, even the energy that exists into Anger can be transformed and put into good use, transforming it, for instance, into an Echoing song to discharge in the woods, liberating and who knows… you might even become the next most cherished rock star!
Learn to concentrate on “Matter” and then all you need is to choose how to charge it all over again, but this time around, charging it in a way that’s not harmful to you, hopefully neither to others!!!!!
P.S. Above you’ll see a fraction of a Meditative process, maybe abstract and not in the higher English I could use, but that’s besides the point, concentrate on the MATTER and transform it in whatever you please, just like I transformed myself into an Indiana Jones and turned all my disappointments irrelevant to my focus: GROWTH! You have the power to lead your life, to become the vehicle for your soul to go forth and never stop, and this is too exiting as to stay back and simply watch! Take the ride! That’s my advice, for as much as it counts!
Peace,
The Heart’ Flower
